for years i was the one that  hardly drank or anything of that matter. always the designated driver, always the one you called for a couch to sleep on, a ride home, or a shoulder to lean on. you had your fun, the drinking and the drugs. and i sat back, never judging just being the friend you could count on. i start drinking more, and everyone blows up. i've never called you at 3am for a ride home, needed you to hold my hair back while i vomited, or affected your life in any way by me drinking. but even if i did those things you would think that after everything i had done for you the least you could do is be there for me, not judge, not control but just be my fucking friend. i don't need your two cents on how i should live my life. me drinking has never hurt anyone, or started to control anything in my life. i'm having fun and its not going any farther than that. you think you'd be the first person to understand because you were just like this. it's crazy how much of a good friend i try to be and you turn it around to make me into an asshole? what have done to you?


why do i feel like i can't even tell my bestfriends things without them judging me?